Saturday, January 13, 2007

notes from rainy saturday 1/13

Notes from a rainy day

Where are the flagellants

To ward off this next wave

Birds down under fall from the sky

Along Congress Ave, Austin TX a scene repeated.

Ticking forwards towards come what may

A bright new future or just a large mass grave?

They dragged the Semites to their Pyres

On Valentines Day.

They flew planes into buildings;

Cursed tyrants on the gallows.

Wasted moments in fear & pain.

Who are the new creatures

& who is wasted in their grave?

Death is your friend

In the end, the only answer

In Europe, the black death gave rise to industrialism.

Changes in religion; survival of the fittest

Shaking forward & yet violence still finds the best of men

Rising and falling their swords on the fallen.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Didn't we already win this war?

Let's see: the reasons for going to war were pretty much 1) WMDS and 2) regime change. Seeing how there are clearly no WMDs in the country, Saddam is history as are his sons, as well as is noted terrorist Al Zarqawi, how is it that we haven't already won?

If we're going to define winning as when all these people learn to play nice and fair we're going to be there for a long, long time.

I'm sorry but the fundamental problem is much deeper than that. There's a reason why our most solid allies in the region are monarchies. When people in the Mideast vote, they usually vote against the U.S. and to wipe Israel off the face of the earth. Do you really think the Shi' ites who make up Iraq's current government are different that the ones next door in Iran?

There is also what I call the misery factor. You can muck things up with all sorts of ideological debates about politics and religion, but the bottom line is that the cause of all the suffering in Mideast is unhappiness. Addressing the root causes of that unhappiness is the answer; its not going to happen at the end of a gun's barrel.

Besides, we're going hemoragghing debt now, and I find that obscene.

A definition of Evil

Evil is ignorant selfishness. Good is enlightened selflessness.

I am going to make some generalizations, so keep in mind, I am well aware there are exceptions to every rule, and nothing is black and white, or clear cut & dry.

I would define evil as unenlightened selfishness, which is a result of ignorance. Therefore, and quite ironically, I have concluded that as far as people go, the most evil people among us are our children. I know that sounds crazy and insane, but consider that I’ll contrast that with the notion that the best among us are the old.

When a child cries and throws a fit, because he or she doesn’t get what she wants, she is doing so because she knows no better (ignorance) To a child the world revolves around THEM. Children can be terribly cruel to other children, especially ones with handicaps. But we excuse children because they really know no better; they are acting on their first thoughts and instincts. They are innocent little beings that amaze us. Yet their fundamental nature is very “me” oriented.

Think about most grandparents, about how they dote on their grandkids, worry about their kids, volunteer at hospitals. I think as you grow older you become wiser (hence the evolution of the archetype of God as a wise old man with a beard) and begin to find your purpose in life as being others and not yourself. You live for others. You see yourself in others, and realize a certain oneness with others. And the kind of self worth and happiness this produces far outweighs your own selfish needs. In fact, worrying about your own selfish needs over others tend to increase your isolation and loneliness.

So if you see life as a progression from extreme self-centeredness to extreme selflessness, I see that as the ideal life pattern. Children by nature are selfish, but as they mature and grow and start families of their own, their lives become less about themselves and more about others, and they become happier.

You ask how I define evil. Nature is evil. Life is evil. Think about it. Dogs are evil. If you doubt that just ask a cat. But cats and dogs are simply obeying their natural instincts. If a shark attacks me while swimming is it evil? It is as far as I am concerned, because my life is over. But ultimately the shark is simply acting on an instinctual need to eat. It is not evil in an ultimate sense.

I know of a mass murderer who killed 250,000 people, many who died horrible deaths being ripped from the arms of their loved ones. Is this killer evil? I don’t know can a Tsunami be evil? Is an earthquake evil, or just a natural act of God?

As humans we know the difference between good and evil in that we know that life must kill life in order to live. We comprehend duality. We know that for every sun rise there is a sunset. In math we know that every positive number has a negative integer. I believe we have to find a balance. You can’t give in to nihilism because all of us are in this together. There can be no life without sacrifice. You cannot have good without evil. There is a pendulum swinging forward towards our collective destiny and it involves knowing both good and evil.

Those of us alive in the 21st century in many ways won the lottery of life in terms of when in human history we are living. We have access to the best health care, education, comforts, technology, so I think in many ways we need to appreciate these moments that we are alive and count our blessings. We are doing things that would amaze our ancestors. I know it’s easy to get disillusioned and beaten down by ennui. Mass media makes it possible to know that people are starving and suffering in other parts of the world. We can work to alleviate suffering, but there always will be suffering as long as there are conscious sentient beings in the world.

But think if were born in another time, when women didn’t have rights, when slavery was the norm, when people died of pestilence, plaques. We might have been drafted to fight in wars we didn’t believe in. Of course, there’s the possibility we might witness Nuclear Armageddon or a global environmental calamity due to global warming. Welcome to our part in world history. We are witnesses, in all its gore & all its glory.

I like to think life; our experience of life, the collective human experience is a progression from bad to good, from war to peace, from death to life. It’s an evolution from the simple to the complex. There is a peace of mind when you accept your place along this path. You also need to take a certain amount of responsibility. And you need to love others, unconditionally. If they commit acts of evil, hate the sin, but love the sinner. It’s not easy to do.

There are in many religions and faiths key elements that I believe to be true. That said, I don’t think there is a devil per se. There is your rational mind and your ego coupled with your animal nature, and based upon genetics and your environmental conditioning, there is your fate. To the extent that you become more conscious of your place in the world, and the fact that despite how small and insignificant you may think you are, deep inside you, you are connected to the source of all life, every action, big or small, that you take is important.

I always liked the idea in Christianity of original sin, or that all have fallen short in the eyes of God. It’s a way of saying, we’re all to blame, equally, as life as it is lived must include both good AND evil. There can be no life without sacrifice.

Remember those puzzles we had when were a kid and you had these numbers and you tried to get the numbers all to be in sequence and every time you move a number you affect all the other numbers, like a Rubik’s Cube. We are all like those numbers in the puzzle, and the entirety of the puzzle is the entirety of ourselves in the known universe, and we are one with that universe and yet also that small number. Still every move we make is connected the larger puzzle and brushes up and affects other parts of the puzzle, for a chain a reaction ad infinitum.

Evil is one number in the puzzle that only is concerned about where its number is in the puzzle and could care less about how moving about affects all the other numbers. Some of us when this number pushes up against us, push back, and blame it on the other number. Fair enough, but a wiser approach might be to not push back (turn the other cheek) and try to reason with the number.

Evil would be the unenlightened selfishness of the one number that does not act with enlightened self-interest that is part of a larger puzzle and learning to move in harmony with all the other pieces of the puzzle is the source of happiness.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Death of a Tyrant

Central to Buddhism is the idea of compassion and not just compassion for the needy or the infirm but compassion for all living beings who are suffering due to the conditions of their life. You find this sentiment in most religions.

I believe that when Jesus said “You do it unto the least of me, you’ve done it to me,” he just wasn’t talking just about the poor or crippled, but the morally inferior as well. Because I believe people that we define as evil are in reality just people who are very sick. Many times this has to do with what happened to them as children.

I didn’t know this until recently but Hussein was brutalized by his step-father. He never knew his real father. This isn’t to excuse his behavior but to try to get some understanding into how a man like him comes to be because he wasn’t born into this world an evil dictator. Somehow along to his death he became transformed into something vile. More times than not, what he experiences as a child is a factor, as we all know these are formative years.

We can all agree that if we become aware of little boy who is abused, that we will care about the little boy and have compassion for him. Can we then somehow find it our hearts to have compassion for the same boy having grown up and having not dealt with his childhood abuse very well? Once upon a time, Saddam Hussein was an innocent little boy. Do any of you have any curiosity about what you have to add to a little boy to make him into a brutal dictator? This doesn’t excuse the behavior or make it OK, but at least we can get an idea of where it comes from.

In Christianity they say, hate the sin, love the sinner. In Eastern thought this is expressed more as the idea that we must have compassion for all living beings, even if we disagree with their behavior because their behavior is simply the result of their programming. A person is not their programming. With an execution, it’s as though we take a tape player and because we don’t like what the tape is playing, we ceremoniously destroy the tape player.

We can kill Saddam Hussein’s ad infinitum, but until we deal with the conditional circumstances of his development i.e. the cultural, religious, and social customs of his environment; the ongoing vicious karmic cycles of abuse, hatred, retribution, and violence, these programs will continue to be generated and find their way into tape players to play them. And we can continue to destroy tape players, thinking somehow we are wiping out the programs we don’t like, but paradoxically are perpetuating the proliferation of the programs.

But in a small way, in the sense that we become capable of killing a broken old man, we are no longer innocent, and are in fact playing a similar (if less lethal) program. In many ways, we become tainted, corrupted, in our effort to stamp out the perceived evil; we become infected with the same type of hatred. We become mirrors reflecting back the hatred.

The men who killed Saddam allowed Saddam’s inhumanity to rob them of their own. As I said before I don’t mourn Saddam’s downfall, rather I mourn that he succeeds in dragging so many down with him.